Letting Go

I am learning to let go and stop being so darn clingy with Griffin...he is helping me in that department. It is not easy though and I find that I have to make myself stay away from him and stop being so affectionate all the time. He loves hugs but he is quick to tell me that he needs his space and for me to get away from him, it is not as though it hurts my feelings because I do understand that it is time to separate. It is more like I just don't know what to do with myself, isn't that what happens with moms when their kiddos take their space?

I know that he will need me for certain things but he is getting to be pretty darn independent, cooking in the microwave, cleaning up, and keeping himself quite busy most all the time. He communicates pretty well even though we do have our moments when it is an issue and there's an occasional meltdown. Nobody is perfect on either side of the problem but we have improved exponentially since I made my medication change. We are quick to say that we are sorry when we make mistakes and give big hugs and learn from our experiences ending up smiling even more sometimes.

We are still alone, without buddies or support but maybe soon we will find someone. Sometimes, there are people who you meet but they just don't seem to work out as buddies for one reason or another. So we are still looking.