We're Home!

Well, I made it home and Griffin is here by my side finally. I didn't go to the hospital as I thought that I would but instead went to a small crisis treatment center. There was only about 5 clients there including myself with about 5 staff members. We had group 3 times a day which was beneficial to me and my medications were increased. I am feeling considerably better, don't know if it was just the medication change or the atmosphere/therapy or perhaps both but what a huge difference! I started feeling better the second day that I was there probably because it was so darn boring and it made me want to get better that much more.........just kidding. There was lots and lots of quiet time with no TV, time to read and write in my journal, time to reflect and appreciate the time that I had at home with my beautiful Griffin.

My time there has taught me how to avoid stumbling blocks that may lead to depression. I have learned how to boost my self esteem and create positive thoughts when the negative seems to prevail. All in all it was a valuable lesson, one that I will never forget. I met some people who are now near and dear to my heart the staff and the clients there have left an indelible memory for me. If only I could just go there each time I need a break, how nice that would be but not likely since I wouldn't have a respite provider for Griffin. So, in the interim I must be strong, learn to relax, but not too much relaxation, and how to be pro active with how I treat myself.

Griffin seems to be very happy to be home but there's no way that he could be happier than I am because we are together again. I am now able to fully appreciate the treasures and gifts in my life and am able to love living in the present and not be bogged down by the past or by expectations of the future. Each moment is still a challenge for me as I am working on staying out of depression and going into happiness. I just have to meet each day head on and not let the random invasive thoughts rule my life. Since I am feeling stronger it is not as tough as before therefore I say "Bring it on baby" I am ready to take on the world because my favorite little guy is here with me and that's all I need right now to get me through anything.

Thank you all for your support, I love you all. There are no words to describe how grateful I am for you. I have laughed and cried when reading your comments and both are very cathartic for me. Because of the support that you have provided I am one step closer to being where I need to be in a happy, comfortable, and secure place. I wish you all a happy holiday and many many blessings along the way and even if this is not a holiday season for you I wish you the best of all that life has to offer with plenty of laughter and joy in whatever you do.