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Saturday, December 24, 2005

We're Home!

Well, I made it home and Griffin is here by my side finally. I didn't go to the hospital as I thought that I would but instead went to a small crisis treatment center. There was only about 5 clients there including myself with about 5 staff members. We had group 3 times a day which was beneficial to me and my medications were increased. I am feeling considerably better, don't know if it was just the medication change or the atmosphere/therapy or perhaps both but what a huge difference! I started feeling better the second day that I was there probably because it was so darn boring and it made me want to get better that much more.........just kidding. There was lots and lots of quiet time with no TV, time to read and write in my journal, time to reflect and appreciate the time that I had at home with my beautiful Griffin.

My time there has taught me how to avoid stumbling blocks that may lead to depression. I have learned how to boost my self esteem and create positive thoughts when the negative seems to prevail. All in all it was a valuable lesson, one that I will never forget. I met some people who are now near and dear to my heart the staff and the clients there have left an indelible memory for me. If only I could just go there each time I need a break, how nice that would be but not likely since I wouldn't have a respite provider for Griffin. So, in the interim I must be strong, learn to relax, but not too much relaxation, and how to be pro active with how I treat myself.

Griffin seems to be very happy to be home but there's no way that he could be happier than I am because we are together again. I am now able to fully appreciate the treasures and gifts in my life and am able to love living in the present and not be bogged down by the past or by expectations of the future. Each moment is still a challenge for me as I am working on staying out of depression and going into happiness. I just have to meet each day head on and not let the random invasive thoughts rule my life. Since I am feeling stronger it is not as tough as before therefore I say "Bring it on baby" I am ready to take on the world because my favorite little guy is here with me and that's all I need right now to get me through anything.

Thank you all for your support, I love you all. There are no words to describe how grateful I am for you. I have laughed and cried when reading your comments and both are very cathartic for me. Because of the support that you have provided I am one step closer to being where I need to be in a happy, comfortable, and secure place. I wish you all a happy holiday and many many blessings along the way and even if this is not a holiday season for you I wish you the best of all that life has to offer with plenty of laughter and joy in whatever you do.


Kristina Chew said...

What a joy to see Griffin's smiling face and to hear that you are home! I can hear the joy and the hope in your voice. Charlie likes to kneel on the floor with his hands clasped in just such a way, and he sometimes that has that lovely-goofy-sweetboy smile too.

Thanks for giving us all a wonderful present. Peace and we'll all be with you as the journey continues.

Rebekah Christine said...

Welcome home. It warms our heart to think that the two of you are back together again!

-Scott (Rebekah's Daddy)

Peggy Lou Morgan said...

Glad you're home and feeling better. Give Griffin a big hug for us.

KCsMom said...

Hi Lora and Griffin,
I am so glad your back and feeling better! Griffin is all smiles! You take it easy Lora, we are all so happy you are home.

Your friends,
Tina and K.C.

Octoberbabies said...

That is SO good to hear :-D. Enjoy your holiday and that gorgeous little boy of yours!


Laura said...

I'm so glad you are home. I am going to try to send you a longer e-mail after my holiday guests leave. I hope you guys had a lovely holiday together.

Jenn said...

YAY - I am SO thrilled to read that you are home, and that you and Griffin were together for Christmas - that is indeed the best gift you could have hoped for!
Your writing certainly reflects a positive change in you. you *sound* so much happier - and I am happy for you!
Hope you had a wonderful Christmas, and that this coming year will be a joy to you both!
(((hugs))) from our family to yours (big deep ones from Matthew who likes them "tightest")

mommyguilt said...

You tell 'em - BRING IT ON! You never cease to amaze me with your strength and determination to do the best for you and Griffin. I am SO happy to hear that you and Griffin were together for Christmas and that you are feeling better, healthier, and stronger.

I am so pleased, too, that our blog family has once again rallied to support and to aid and to hug and to cry and to listen and to hold. What a true holiday blessing to have! Lora, welcome home!!!!!!!